As of December, I am 70.

This vehicle has completed ten 7-year cycles. My body still has most of my original parts – a few missing, worn, replaced, or augmented. I feel healthier and more balanced than I was at age 49 years on my Kiron return, or even on my second Saturn return at age 59.

There is a view from here that I find interesting – no longer trying to get somewhere, and more interested in where I am, right now, inside. I move more – the need for the movement of the triple-split experience has become part of my rhythm, part of the dance to experience balance within. From an outside perspective, it might look like restlessness; from within, it feels like the necessary movement toward finding my inner balance.

I have become more patient with myself, though Dharmen would laugh if I said that, especially when I mention the word patience in the same sentence as myself.

I’m in less of a hurry to get ‘somewhere,’ and instead, I relax into my process of being, feeling, moving, and enjoying the experience now. Waiting is an active state of awareness. Over time, my experience has shifted from waiting for ‘something’ to being in the state of awareness in the now, or to finding myself lost in the mind’s story.

 I live in the space of ‘everything everywhere all at once’ – the internal experience of the Right Arrow variables, as I perceive them. My body’s movements are part of that connectedness with everything — the spatial awareness of my location, my aura space, and how it interacts with the outside. There’s no hierarchy, no goal, no image to maintain — only feeling my way through space and time.

There is no goal of my thoughts, no grand point to reach, or figured out; there is only the moment-to-moment experience of the mind’s this and that. It doesn’t stop my mind from having its commentaries, but at this point, my mind’s commentaries are part of everything, not The Thing that I must obey.

Daily living, the routine tasks of caring for my body and surroundings, takes more time and attention now than it did at age 40 or even at 60. There’s more care involved, more present moments, more laughter. Less gets done, but with more feeling, more awareness.

Living in an aging body, the recognition that life is brief and that there is less ahead than has already been experienced is part of the awareness.

The gift of sharing the past forty years with Dharmen is carried preciously. I’m grateful for each day we share. There is only now for experiencing love. Now.

I also notice widespread changes across many levels in our homogenized world. Old ways are collapsing, and new ones are emerging unexpectedly. Amid climate events, wars, financial and economic challenges, political polarization, and fading or breaking cultural bonds, there’s a clear sense that change is on the way.

AI is rapidly infiltrating every app and program with implied consent, then continuously updating with new tricks to entertain restless minds. Finding how to turn it off is more difficult than ignoring its automated suggestions. Every screen seems to have gained a sense of movement and fluidity, as if static screens are too slow and boring to hold the distracted attention of the homogenized world. The infinite diversity and variety of life are being reduced to algorithms day by day.

I appreciate the gift of Human Design in my life every day. Having my own authority, not swayed by the winds of change, but sitting firmly within this vehicle and observing my experience—it’s beyond my wildest dreams of how life could be. There are no fireworks, no reward at the end of the road, but there is enjoying the ride. Ahhhh! Mmmmmm!